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Emptiness

It's strange how empty I feel inside without a 'day job'. I've been putting a lot into the Southern Living At HOME job, but I still get this feeling like I'm shirking work. It's like there is something I'm supposed to be doing and I'm ducking out of it. I'm too used to working my ass off that I don't know what to do when I'm not totally PLANNED.

The other strange thing? Getting a lump sum payment with 25% held out. See, you have that much taken out gradually across your salary and you don't realize the loss. You have it in black and white how much is held out in one payout and SHOCK!!!!!

I used to live on less than my severance each year, but then I didn't have a house, kids, big car payments, dogs, an elderly mother, so many bills.

I did my first 'reality' step today: I actually inquired about an opening at Starbucks. Unfortunately, it was only a night position, so I didn't apply. In the next week or so, if nothing else comes through, I'm going to apply at Michael's, Hobby Lobby and Joann's.

OH! I did apply this morning for a position that would be SO COOL. It's an affiliate marketing position with the Susan G. Komen Foundation. Wouldn't that be perfect???

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farley_warley
Oct. 10th, 2008 02:59 pm (UTC)
yaaaay job hunting!
i feel your pain, sister--it gets boring during the day when you're used to going at it like gangbusters for at least 8 hours a day for some company or another. i think i'm actually going to apply to starbucks, too :) good luck!