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strange 'dreams'

I don't know if you would calls these dreams, because I am awake for the short ones. They are really vivid and slightly out of place.

- I redreamed an entire dream from about 12 years ago. In it I saw people I knew at the time and knew their full names, although before coming to the hospital I couldn't have told you who they were anymore. This was an amazing dream, just like the first one, and contained every detail. The only change was at the ending, when the friend tells me he knows this isn't the real dream but that I 'needed it' right now

- I dreamed a long and fanciful dream about a friend of ours and some new things he had built out back. I washed another friend's car and several people were running around naked. We lived in a house about a block awsy, and to get home, I had to pass this singing REALLY butch lesbian who was nice to me.

- Since I know that my friend doesn't have all of these things, I somehow went back into that dream sequence later and none of it was there. However, when I started asking questions about it, it was something he was in the planning phases of. I was very upset that it freaked them out, so I tried to run home. The singing lesbian was still there, but this time she beat the ever living shit out of me. (I think this turn may have happened around the time the surgical incision pump in my belly ran out of meds and I started really hurting)

- I can just close my eyes to see and hear people in the room. These aren't real people, that I know of, but are very detailed and real. There is always something off, like they do some sort of inappropriate action or say something they shouldn't say in front of me. If I open my eyes, everything is gone, but closing them again brings it all back.

- Finally, we were living at some sort of animal reserve. A friend of ours came by with her two large dogs on leashes. Their skin was rotting away in places, and although she said they were very nice to other people, they were repeatedly attacking me. We had a really hard time getting them out of there, or getting me away from them. I KNOW this had to be a pain dream, because that is the only thing that fits.

I hope they get the Pik line in place sometime soon so I can go back to IV meds and maybe cut down on my pain level. Scott should be here later this afternoon after he picks up the kids from school and drops them at home. YAY! It makes me happy to have him here even though I am not the best company right now.

The doctor also told nutrition I can have a 'real' breakfast, something like eggs and pancakes because they are still soft and it would be a change for me. Chick took my tray a couple of hours ago, but never came back.


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Dec. 18th, 2006 03:47 pm (UTC)
Wow. Freaky drug dreams.

But pancakes!! I'll bet they'll replace ice chips as the best food you ever tasted. Ring the nurses and tell them you want food. They should be able to have it brought up on command. Kinda like room service. :)

Dec. 18th, 2006 04:11 pm (UTC)
yeah, if they ever get it to me. The nurses changed shifts while TWO doctors were in here. They said I could have my pain meds and something for nausea at that time. They also sent the nutritionist away with my breakfast and said to bring a real one, but still soft.

45 minutes and 2 nurse calls later, I finally got my pain meds. Took an additional hour to get me pain medication becuase there were no written orders for it.

I asked about the breakfast, and the nurse said I was still NPO. No, I have been eating and drinking for 2 days, just a bland clear diet. She's going to go 'page the doctor' now. It's 10 am, and I haven't eaten anything since about 7 last night.

They were also going to take my catheter out this morning, but I haven't heard on that again either. The surgeon who was going to put in my pik line is backed up, so at some point someone was going to try a couple of times for a new IV, to see if they could avoid it and start getting IV meds back into me.
Dec. 18th, 2006 04:17 pm (UTC)
You need someone there with you. Someone to raise hell, knock some heads together, and get them to take care of you!! This is inexcusable! Why didn't the doctor follow up and make sure his orders were clear and documented and effectively communicated?

Do I need to come out there now? Do I need to call someone in the meantime?
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