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YAY! Both St. Paul and Zale Lipshy hospitals have wireless access in the patient rooms. Friday, after my Thursday surgery, Scott is going to bring my laptop to me so I'll be online as I feel up to it.

I think I'm pretty much packed now. Tomorrow night I have to move my laptop tray back into my room. In the afternoon, I have to bring mom over here and make sure I draw directions for jillions on where and when to drop off and pick up the kids, along with giving mom my car keys so Jill can drive them in the van. (Although the mental image of her putting two carseats in the back of the Camaro are quite funny!)

I talked to the psychiatrist yesterday during Matthew's appointment about how to talk to them about the surgeries. I think I was worrying too much about this part. This morning, I asked if they remembered how Matthew had several surgeries and Michael had that one. They did, so I said that Mommy also has to have a surgery but for this one the doctors will need her to stay in the hospital for a few days. I'll be fine, and they can call me at any time. In a few short days, I'll be back home, but will be in bed and they have to be VERY careful with me, just like when I've had my back done.

They seemed fine with it.

I, however, am not so fine with it. Tomorrow I go on all clear liquids. That makes today my last 'normal' day for several months. That really scares me. Everything I've done in the past, including c-section, ovary removal, knee surgery and gall bladder removal, were all short-term things and I was ok within a week or so. I am hoping that I am just building this up in my mind to be worse than it actually will, so I will be pleasantly surprised. I guess I just want to get it over with. The waiting is almost as bad as the surgery itself.


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Oct. 10th, 2006 03:30 pm (UTC)
I wish there was something I could say to make it better and to ease your mind. I wish I could be there to hold your hand. I wish I could help with the boys. But I can't. :(

All I can do is remind you: LY. MI.

A year from now you'll look back on all this and breathe a huge sigh of relief, knowing that you did the very best thing. Not just for yourself, but for your family - you'll be there for them (unless I kidnap you and haul you over here).

LY. Really, really MI.

P.S. All clear liquids? Does vodka count? If I lived closer, I could do like one of the attorneys I work with - she snuck into the hospital with a bottle of Skyy and a couple of martini glasses.
Oct. 10th, 2006 04:25 pm (UTC)
Re: Truce?
Yeah, I mentioned that to genebob last night - Vodka is clear!!!

Unfortunately, it means I'm on chicken broth and jello, with Sprite. Blech.

I'll do fine. I just have an anxiety disorder so I sit and obsess and worry over things. I've been packing for a week now.

I know you're there for me. Charge up your cell phone so I can call you sometimes :)

Now - YOU! Stop shopping! :)
Oct. 10th, 2006 04:03 pm (UTC)
LYMI! I've been sitting here for ten minutes trying to think of what to say. I wish there was something I could do. It's hard having online friends you care about, because you can't be there for them like you want to be. I know you're a tough cookie though. Like GSD said, you'll look back on this in a year and be glad you did it.
Oct. 10th, 2006 04:25 pm (UTC)
Thanks, I know I'll get through it, and it's only 2 more days to worry. :)
Oct. 10th, 2006 07:50 pm (UTC)
I try not to worry about things I can't change. You're gonna do it no matter what, so what's the sense in worrying? If it's something you can change worry till you do, if it's not something you can change worrying is just hurting you. So enjoy today and tomorrow and quit it :)
Oct. 10th, 2006 04:31 pm (UTC)
body modification of any kind can be confusing to the body itself, but I think you will be pleasantly suprised at how quickly your body will realize it is safe from the brewing storm that could have been in its future. Your body will thank you and heal quickly, of this I am sure, having seen your very lucky current stars.
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Oct. 11th, 2006 12:58 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Phen. That's exactly why I am doing it. The thought of fairly probable breast cancer is WAY scarier.

I feel like a walking campaign for Breast Cancer awareness :) You would LOVE my pedicure I gave myself. I painted my toes light pink, and then with a bright pink I drew a ribbon. In the loop of the ribbon, I glued a pink rhinestone. Just something to make me feel good in the hospital. A small reminder of 'why'.

Have fun on your trip!
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