Why do I find myself unable to keep my eyes open around 9-10 am, no matter how much sleep I got the night before?
I feel like I'm in some sort of limbo. There is no action towards solutions. Only talk.
I go back and forth between laying here doing nothing and throwing myself into some kind of denial binge, where I drink too much, need people around me, and spend way too much money.
Surprisingly, work is going well. That is what takes all of my energy - keeping that going.