September 11th, 2006

Drink to make things suck less

Wake me up

I'm not sure what's happening to my body. Am I getting sick? Am I getting depressed? Is it a side-effect of the chemoprevention? Is it something else?

Why do I find myself unable to keep my eyes open around 9-10 am, no matter how much sleep I got the night before?

I feel like I'm in some sort of limbo. There is no action towards solutions. Only talk.

I go back and forth between laying here doing nothing and throwing myself into some kind of denial binge, where I drink too much, need people around me, and spend way too much money.

Surprisingly, work is going well. That is what takes all of my energy - keeping that going.