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So tired. So lonely.

I've been up every couple of hours all night, even though I tried going to bed at 10:30 last night. The dogs wanted out. My back hurt no matter what position I tried to sleep in. Matthew was so exhausted from staying up late the night before that he didn't wake up to go pee, and wet his bed. He doesn't do that at all, so he came to me complaining that someone had put water in his bed :) I had to climb up to the top bunk to rip the covers off, but I still haven't put new ones on. I still couldn't sleep, so I just got up and took a shower at 6.

Now I'm sitting in my nest, with my heating pad on my back. I've taken my 'keep Trish sane' pills and hope that I can nap today like I did yesterday.

It feels like it should be Monday to me. We usually stay over at Brett and Angela's house on Saturday nights, so staying on a Friday night has completely thrown me. I feel like I've somehow gained a day, or it is a long weekend or something. They have invited us to come back today and swim, and the kids really want to, but I THINK Scott might be coming home today, even though I haven't heard from him in a week. He said around the 4th or 5th, so today would make sense.

I miss Scott so much. He's practically been gone constantly for the last couple of months, and it's like a piece of me is gone. He's my true best friend, and I want him back. The bed has been feeling really large lately.

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kathy83
Jun. 4th, 2006 03:43 pm (UTC)
is that you and Scott in the icon? how long have you known each other?
trshtwns01
Jun. 4th, 2006 03:50 pm (UTC)
That's us a LONG time ago. We met about 16 years ago and started dating (around 1990/1991). Then we got married in 1995 and will celebrate our 11th wedding anniversary in September.

Back then, and up until a few years ago, I always had REALLY long hair, anywhere from mid shoulderblade down to lower back. In the picture, we were out on a friend's boat going out to one of the barrier islands in the Gulf of Mexico.
semantique
Jun. 4th, 2006 07:01 pm (UTC)
How much longer will he travel like this? Does it come in waves? Seems like he didn't go anywhere for months and then wham-o.
trshtwns01
Jun. 4th, 2006 07:31 pm (UTC)
It comes in waves. I just hope this wave ends soon.
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